Expectation

I will burn in the fire of expectation

their world has created for me

and when the flames are over

The ashes fly , but there will be

a part of me still beating

that will resurrect and chase my own world

But not with my consent

somebody thought i will be a good shade for the travellers when i grew up
I was planted ,but not with my consent ,
i didn't choose this place But i thank him for choosing it for me
For i know i couldnt have found this place

The nature adopted me, nurturing and feeding me with her love
And i dont remember the time flying by
For i became a tree in no time
but i remember the birds flying away from me every while

The travellers came and went , never looking back
i too felt to walk with them , to travel places unknown
but my roots have went deep, but not with my consent
and i was caught here , nowhere to go, no-one  to love

I was afraid to love, for it wasnt easy to say goodbye everyday
But thats what i thought in the summer, and spring
Till the winter, And then there wasnt anyone to come for me
And that was harder than to say goodbye

So thats what i thought till autumn, when my leaves were shed
and i was bald as a senile, abhorrent to those who passed by
i felt to run and hide, but my roots were deep, but not with my consent
And i know love isnt something for all, but for chosen some.
So dare not to take it for granted ,not even for a moment

A rainy evening

waiting under the shades
looking away vague and distant
that my eyes could reach
that my mind could reach
but this rain is getting heavy
why i am reluctant to step out
From this shades
i am all wet and drenched already
I should follow my heart
walk into the heavy down pour
arms spread , embracing the coldness
The chilled water from the heavens Sink
pouring down , My bones would freeze
But it will cleanse my fears away
 And just carry on walking Till
I reach where my mind is

night

I stood there on the door side
head leaning onto the wooden plank
looking away in search of the imaginary world
into the dark listening to the music
the night has played for me

That night cried heavily sometimes
then sobbing as she missed someone
Her breath languished from the might
Inviting me into her

The fear has pounced on my mind
twisting and smothering my desires
then swallowing like a monstrous python
and i was left there afraid
Not knowing whats there outside waiting

Soon the dawn has returned
And the night has left without me
without saying what she had for me waiting
And i was left there bewildered
For i will never know what i missed

on the sea shore

I sat slowly on that beach
on that line where the land meet the water,
 i laid my hands in the salty tears of the earth
sinking deep into thoughts that caressed my mind
like the swift sea breeze that flew around me
the time rolled around and i saw the waves washing away
my flesh, the sun bleaching my bones
I feel pain but For what shall i cry to stop my pain
 this is life ,you should stop the heart to stop hurt

I laid back in the sand bellowing like thunderous sky
adding more and more salt into the sea water
but what shall it bring back, time has rolled gathering no love
I am left alone in this shore like a  butterfly that dreamt  to fly
but the wings burned when the sun beat down over this shore

River

I shall flow to directions unknown

Spill a little water side ways ,backwards 

Leave a mark, little for the plants

a little for the birds, bovine

To drink and feel the chilness of  my life

taste a little sour of my dreams that 

Got drenched in tears and then Disappeared

Turning the clock backwards

Flowers in the sides,grey leaves, tall trees
And a long road ahead
If only i could forget the past
I would have returned
all the way walking back
with the joy of watching
the scenic beauty on the sides
As if like for the first time