Monday 15 August 2016

A promise

   I felt very uncomfortable there, sitting between two old timers trying to dig up their past , sometimes around the back of my face , in front of my face as well. i should better stand up and  leave , thats what i usually does after eating the food in a marriage function, if my brother reads this he may be wondering which all marriages i have attended so far. its true that i go out seldom and only when it is inevitable and of very high priority. well in his words i am too lazy to go out . but its not about laziness, i am so tired of facing people's questions about my future , i would love to tell them that i dont own that magic ball to look into when i get confused about the future plans, but that would be very rude. So better stay home and dodge the Q's before they arrive, Voila
   But i dont want to miss this one, i know her ever since i learned to play Tag. she was my partner of crimes, but more than my best buddies marriage it was that girl with yellow frock and black spots i was looking forward to..How can an eight year old knew about love and adoration , may be it was those movies that i was watching at that time.
    I know that i am not here to revive that old love story of mine, but i am here to return something that she asked me too keep safe twenty years before, before she left to her home in US after the vacation. i put my hands inside my pocket and slowly rubbed that marble balls together, the green was mine and the blue was hers, she promised me that she will return one day to collect it from me, and i promised her to keep it safe.I havent kept it out of my sight ever since i had it,

     I saw my pal all dressed up in her wedding gown walking towards me , wow how couldnt i see she was this beautiful before? with her there was she and a handsome guy , well i am not a gay but looking at that guy i lost my breath because he was that hot and i prayed that he may be some cousin of her's but, some times you could only do is praying and the next moment you realize that there isnt much hope doing so.
  She came near me hold my hand and asked laughingly "are you our fatso? i cant believe this". yeah sometimes in the past i used to be a little plumb . i laughed and i was glad that she remembered me.
  "well i hope this will make you believe" i took the blue marble ball from my pocket and handed it to her
  she looked at it, then to my face and then again into that ball , blue like the deep ocean , mystic like our minds, her laughter disappeared from her face , and in that moment the hot guy came and took her with him into the crowds, before she disappeared she looked again at me, and at that moment i know the twenty years of waiting for her wasnt the hardest but this was  , i saw her fading away into the midst of the crowd holding hands with her fiancee ,

"  Our life is the promise we make with today that we will wake up tomorrow and meet it then"
keep your promises no matter what
Kamal VV

Saturday 6 August 2016

Expectation

I will burn in the fire of expectation
their world has created for me
and when the flames are over
The ashes fly , but there will be
a part of me still beating
that will resurrect and chase my own world

So Estranged

the retribution for the sins I walked through the hells corridor the hot metallic floor where  the bones melt like candles I felt no...